A Charmed Life: Life's a Play!

Dear Diary. today is Wednesday, 31st.
One month more and I'm gone, my days are counted. there was a message from Yuki when i got home. i immediately called her to inquire about the phone call from Ken, but nobody's answering the phone. it was so bad. Bad, bad news, i was immediately saddened. Yuki didn't have to lie to me. i know that there was no call from Ken at all. I just have the feeling, i don't believe that that's all his message for me.. and there are gaps in the timing when he's supposed to have called.. and if it was her mother that Ken spoke with, I don't believe he told Yuki's mother about me... no, he didn't call, no response from him, as usual. The message according to Yuki is that Ken called and spoke to her mother saying that he is doing fine and has received the postcard and the letter and he is very thankful for my good wishes...and he also wished me good luck as I go back to my country, and goodbye. that's all. I can't believe this! it hurts...


i knew he didn't call because my roommate said that Yuki approached her at 3 o'clock asking about me, inquiring if i am ok.. my roomate was surprised, she told Yuki that as far as she knows I am looking just fine, like normal.. Mia, my roomate said that Yuki looked very worried so it worried her also! the time Ken has supposed to have called Yuki's mother was at 3:30PM, and Yuki was not yet home at that time because it takes her 2 hours by train to get home, and she does not carry a mobile phone. so how could she know that there was a call from Ken? she didn't have to lie to me just to save me from expecting and waiting for a word from Ken... now it hurts even more.. but i don't blame her, she's just doing what she thinks is good for me. she too is giving up on Ken..


hah, how i wished i haven't met Ken at all, then it wouldn't be this complicated.